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Jan. 3, 2024

Best of 2023: Naghmeh Panahi's Story of Survival in Iran and Unmasking Hidden Domestic Abuse

In the depths of despair, Naghmeh Panahi's story holds an unexpected twist that will leave you breathless. From the war-torn streets of her homeland to the foreign shores of America, she battled not just with oppression, but with her own sense of belonging. However, it was when her husband faced imprisonment in Iran that her life took a dramatic turn, revealing a truth so shocking it will make you question everything. Prepare yourself for a journey of resilience, as Naghmeh's story unravels with a heart-wrenching open loop, leaving you eager to discover the strength she found to break free.

In the depths of despair, Naghmeh Panahi's story holds an unexpected twist that will leave you breathless. From the war-torn streets of her homeland to the foreign shores of America, she battled not just with oppression, but with her own sense of belonging. But it was when her husband faced imprisonment in Iran that her life took a dramatic turn, revealing a truth so shocking it will make you question everything. Prepare yourself for a journey of resilience, as Naghmeh's story unravels with a heart-wrenching open loop, leaving you eager to discover the strength she found to break free.

My special guest is Naghmeh Panahi

We are thrilled to rerelease this Best of 2023 episode with Naghmeh Panahi on the A World of Difference podcast. Naghmeh's story is one of incredible strength and resilience in the face of abuse. Having experienced domestic violence and spiritual abuse within religious institutions, she has become a beacon of hope for survivors. Her book, "I Didn't Survive: Emerging Whole After Deception, Persecution, and Hidden Abuse," is a testament to her courage and determination. Naghmeh's journey from an immigrant Muslim girl from Iran to an advocate for women and children impacted by domestic abuse is truly inspiring. Through her foundation, Tahir Al Nisa, she is making a profound impact on the lives of those who have experienced similar traumas. We are honored to have Naghmeh share her story and insights on the podcast, as she empowers others to break free from abusive relationships and find their voice. Get ready for an episode filled with empowerment and inspiration.

As we go through the fires of trials, we don't really survive. A lot of our way of thinking or things we didn't see before, like abuse or different things just come to light and our old self doesn't survive and we become a new person. - Naghmeh Panahi

In this episode, you will be able to:

Discover the courage and strength of Naghmeh Panahi as she shares her powerful story of surviving abuse within a religious institution.
Uncover the hidden nature of abuse within religious institutions and gain a deeper understanding of the complexities involved.
Find hope and inspiration as you learn about the healing and recovery process for survivors of abuse within religious institutions.
Gain knowledge and insight into advocating for change and holding religious institutions accountable for their actions.
Empower yourself to break free from abusive relationships within religious institutions and create a life of freedom and authenticity.

Uncover the Hidden Abuse

Abuse takes many forms, and often, the emotional and verbal types remain hidden from sight. In religious institutions, the power dynamics can foster such mistreatment, which goes unnoticed or is deliberately neglected. Understanding the nuanced ways in which abuse can manifest is vital to identifying victims and offering them the necessary support and resources.

The resources mentioned in this episode are:

Listen to the A World of Difference podcast episode featuring Naghmeh Panahi's inspiring story of survival and redemption.
Purchase Naghmeh Panahi's book, I Didn't Survive: Emerging Whole After Deception, Persecution, and Hidden Abuse, available now. https://naghmehpanahi.com/
Support the Tahir Al Nisa Foundation, co-founded by Naghmeh Panahi, which serves women and children impacted by domestic abuse by visiting their website and donating. https://www.tahriralnisa.org/about/naghmeh-panahi/
Learn more about the immigrant experience and the trauma faced by refugees by attending trauma recovery weekends and workshops led by experts like Naghmeh Panahi's husband.
Explore the Persian culture and attend events like the Iranian New Year Festival to experience the rich traditions and learn about the history.
Get involved in human rights advocacy by supporting organizations like Amnesty International and sending postcards to individuals in jail in Iran.
Reflect on your own identity and the impact of being a third culture kid by exploring resources and joining support groups for individuals who have similar experiences.
Educate yourself on domestic abuse and its impact by reading books and articles, attending workshops, and supporting organizations that provide resources and support for survivors.
Share Naghmeh Panahi's story

Abusive governments or abusive people try to control you think they try to control weak people, but it's actually sometimes it's trying to restrain strong people... women are really strong and that's why the government is so focused on shutting them down. - Naghmeh Panahi

The key moments in this episode are:

00:00:02 - Introduction

00:01:38 - Nagmeh's Background and Book

00:05:17 - Writing the Book to Help Others

00:07:06 - Immigrant Experience

00:11:41 - Identity as a Third Culture Kid

00:16:03 - Strength of Iranian Women

00:18:11 - Restriction and Fear in the Middle East

00:19:28 - Strong Women and Resistance to Oppression

00:20:53 - Inspiring Women in the Middle East

00:22:19 - Domestic Violence and Speaking Out

00:31:45 - Naghmeh's Hope for Franklin Graham

00:33:27 - Naghmeh's Thoughts on Franklin Graham

00:34:19 - The Title of Naghmeh's Book

00:38:20 - Naghmeh's Message to Those Experiencing Abuse

00:42:55 - Paying Attention to the Body's Signals

00:47:20 - The Sacrifice of Putting People First

00:47:43 - Finding Naghmeh and Her Work

00:48:21 - Gratitude for the Connection

00:49:06 - Naghmeh's Life as a Butterfly

00:50:43 - Calls to Action Based on Naghmeh's Story

Even when you have a strong force coming against you, whether it's government or it's a religious institution or whatever, you have to really be strengthened even more, be stronger to break through. - Naghmeh Panahi

Timestamped summary of this episode:

00:00:02 - Introduction

The host introduces the podcast episode and provides a trigger warning for the guest's discussion of abuse. Listeners are advised to prioritize their mental health while listening to the episode.

00:01:38 - Nagme's Background and Book

Nagme Panahi is introduced as a remarkable woman who has experienced various forms of abuse. Her book, "I Didn't Survive," details her journey of emerging whole after deception, persecution, and hidden abuse.

00:05:17 - Writing the Book to Help Others

Nagme shares that she wrote her book to help others who may be going through similar trials and to share her story of renewal and transformation through suffering.

00:07:06 - Immigrant Experience

Nagme discusses her experience as an immigrant from Iran, highlighting the challenges of adjusting to a new culture and feeling like she didn't fit in. She also reflects on the trauma of war and the limited resources in her home country.

00:11:41 - Identity as a Third Culture Kid

Nagme shares the difficulties of navigating her identity as a third culture kid, feeling neither fully Iranian nor fully American. She discusses the unique perspective and mindset that come with living between cultures.

00:16:03 - Strength of Iranian Women

The guest discusses the stereotypes and misconceptions about Iranian women, highlighting their strength and resilience. She shares stories of Iranian women breaking barriers and standing up against oppression.

00:18:11 - Restriction and Fear in the Middle East

The conversation shifts to the restrictions faced by women in the Middle East, particularly in Afghanistan. The guest emphasizes that these restrictions are a sign of fear from those in power towards strong women who may bring about change.

00:19:28 - Strong Women and Resistance to Oppression

The guest mentions several strong Iranian women who have stood up to oppressive governments and religious institutions. She highlights the importance of strength and resilience when facing challenges and how these women have become voices for change.

00:20:53 - Inspiring Women in the Middle East

The host shares her experiences meeting incredible women in the Middle East, including Malala, and hearing their stories of education and empowerment. She acknowledges the threat these women pose to those who want to suppress their voices.

00:22:19 - Domestic Violence and Speaking Out

The guest opens up about her experience of domestic violence from her husband, who was seen as a Christian hero. She discusses the challenges of speaking out and the strength she found within herself to set boundaries and break free from the abuse.

00:31:45 - Naghmeh's Hope for Franklin Graham

Naghmeh expresses her desire for Franklin Graham to use his platform to advocate for abuse survivors and bring awareness to the issue within the church. She hopes that he will repent of his harmful views and become an ally in the fight against abuse.

00:33:27 - Naghmeh's Thoughts on Franklin Graham

Naghmeh clarifies that while she doesn't currently like Franklin Graham, she doesn't hate him either. She believes that his way of thinking is harmful and hopes that he will change his perspective and become an advocate for abuse survivors.

00:34:19 - The Title of Naghmeh's Book

Naghmeh explains that the title of her book, "I Didn't Survive," reflects the transformation she went through in breaking free from cultural and religious expectations that silenced and oppressed women. She emerged as a new person with a deeper understanding of who God is and the power she possesses.

00:38:20 - Naghmeh's Message to Those Experiencing Abuse

Naghmeh urges anyone experiencing abuse, whether it's in a marriage, church, or any other institution, to prioritize their own well-being and get out of the toxic environment. She emphasizes that God values individuals more than institutions and encourages victims to trust their bodies and seek help.

00:42:55 - Paying Attention to the Body's Signals

Naghmeh highlights the importance of listening to one's body when it comes to recognizing abuse

00:47:20 - The Sacrifice of Putting People First

Naghmeh discusses the importance of prioritizing people and being willing to make sacrifices for them, even if it means losing everything. She emphasizes the simplicity of this concept while acknowledging the challenges it can present.

00:47:43 - Finding Naghmeh and Her Work

Naghmeh shares that she now has a website where people can find information about her and her work in the Middle East. She also mentions that her name can be searched on social media to access more information.

00:48:21 - Gratitude for the Connection

Lori expresses her gratitude for the opportunity to get to know Naghmeh and establish a friendship. She also acknowledges the vulnerability Naghmeh has shown through her writing and shares her appreciation for it.

00:49:06 - Naghmeh's Life as a Butterfly

Lori reflects on Naghmeh's transformation from a caterpillar to a butterfly, symbolizing her freedom and growth. She encourages listeners to find inspiration in Naghmeh's story and highlights the lessons embedded within her narrative.

00:50:43 - Calls to Action for 2024

Lori acknowledges that a story like Naghmeh's can lead us to want to make changes in our own lives whether it's in New Year's Resolutions, goals or saying "goodbye" to last year's ways and "hello" to this year's new ways.

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Transcript

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Hi Nagmeh It's great to see you again

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after being together in Chicago very

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recently a it's just wonderful to have you

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on the show today a you for having me It

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was really nice meeting you in person

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after having heard from you from a mutual

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friend That's right.And shout out to

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Benjie Craig for getting us to meet be we

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met in person and in us arrange this

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interview before we ever met kinds person

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And Benji listens to the show So Hi Benji

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Thank you Benji.Yes Thank you Benji

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Everybody knows and loves So yeah it was

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so wonderful to not only meet you but get

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a chance to hear you speak also at the

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Restore Conference and just get to spend a

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lot of time over a And I know you got to

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ride with my husband in the car ride from

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the airport because I ended up having

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another meeting right away as soon as I

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landed.But our conversations really meant

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so much to me at the Restore Conference

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and also getting a chance to get a copy of

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your book which is really already making a

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difference in so many people's lives But

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tell us about your book I didn't survive

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And why you decided to write it.Well

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today. help others I think a who's lived a

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life long enough knows what a journey it

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is I don't think I realize that or many

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people realize that in their maybe twenty

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s And then life hits as you get older And

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I think in through then trials of life a

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lot of times as we go through the fires of

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trials we don't really survive.A lot of

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our way of thinking or things we didn't

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see before like abuse or different things

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just come to light and our old self

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doesn't survive and we become a new person

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Kind of like I describe it to like a

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caterpillar kind of going through this

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cocoon and then becoming a butterfly And I

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think a lot of us walk through life There

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are processes where that happens a we

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really become renewed and changed through

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that suffering Or that trial.It's true And

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you have gone through so many things that

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almost took you out I mean the things a

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you have had to a through would a been

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more than most people face in Tahir

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lifetime And yet you face so many mean the

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beginning I just think of as around child

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the immigrant experience.My husband

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actually just left today He's in La doing

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another one of his trauma recovery

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weekends for some Afghan refugees He's

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flown Abadini, and couple of experts to

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help him do this weekend And so I know

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know the immigrant experience coming from

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able government especially that's so

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intense like where you had to flee and

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Iran is full of its own trauma and

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childhood So tell us a little bit about at

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that was like for you as a child to just

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show up in America after all you had gone

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through.Yeah I actually really enjoy

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working with immigrants and refugees

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because I understand and in a way working

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with them is also healing for me Yeah I

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grew up in war so some of the refugees I

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work with Syrian now afghani and Iraq and

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especially Middle East where I'm from

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really understand just the trauma of war

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and today government that is against you

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world I grew up in a world where girls

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went to a different school boys went to a

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different school I was always afraid of

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walking out of the house without a head

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covering.I had really nightmares about it

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her it was just very much Islamic country

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with that world And so coming to America

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the baker or stand in line for meat and

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have so much food because of war and there

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week if that sometimes once heard month

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and everything a just so limited and there

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really strange that I realized in my own

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head was for the first time I could dream

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about growing up in Iran I couldn't dream

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about growing up because I didn't knows

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this when I grow up And I thought I've

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never thought about what I want to be when

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was going to grow up.And so just the idea

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of dreaming about what I wanted to be and

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the being in school with boys a girls to

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and a girls not have head coverings and

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have makeup I pretty much end of

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makeup and all the craziness So I kind of

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was thrown in that world and having

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boyfriends and Middle Eastern culture a

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just like not normal So feeling kind of

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strange I didn't fit in We came to Idaho

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shortly after and I was the only person

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that was a different color and a lot of

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people thought I was maybe Hispanic They

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couldn't even understand when I would say

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Middle East or Iran.At that time there

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wasn't really lot of refugees or

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immigrants in this part of the country So

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just getting different reactions from

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people whether it was fear of me or a

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little bit of racism or if they were just

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curious but it just felt weird and strange

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a I didn't feel like I fit in And quickly

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I a to learn the culture so I could fit in

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So I guess being embarrassed to speak

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Farsi like if we were out I played a

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little bit of basketball in junior high

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and my dad would say so in Farsi was like

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don't say it Just embarrassment of the

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language or I don't know.Sometimes in

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Middle East there's this thing until you

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get married you don't really do any facial

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hair removal So mean lot of girls that are

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not married a like unibra's and the day

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that you actually get married you do all

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of that And so my mom was still very much

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Iranian so you couldn't shave you couldn't

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do anything much with body hair And it was

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like hard being in this culture coming

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with parents a still had the other culture

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where you don't do anything until you get

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married and you stay pretty natural in

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every way even with picking out your

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eyebrow So I felt comparing myself to this

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culture it felt a little bit shameful.Like

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I wanted to change things about myself to

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become more integrated and feel like more

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American And over the years it's been

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tough because I haven't really felt fully

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Iranian anymore because I grew up in

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America but I haven't So a lot of people

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say I'm sure you feel that way too when

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you've been missionary in another you're

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like I'm really not this culture a fully I

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have against different mindset and

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perspective but I'm not a culture either

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So I'm kind of in the middle.Yeah it can

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be a on the identity right as a child And

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so that whole third culture kid experience

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which you had and I relate to that part

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And my husband and all my kids my husband

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and Islamic and all three of our kids are

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all third culture kids And we don't get

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our identity from had place And typically

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that's the human experience.We get it in

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other ways Exactly in some beautiful ways

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but just some really different ways And I

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happen to live in Los Gados California

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which is right next to Saratoga and

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Saratoga We share a high school district

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Los Gados and Saratoga and there's a lot

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of Iranian Americans here persians in this

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area In fact we are walking distance from

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Visona Park and they have the Iranian New

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Year Festival there in the spring.We went

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last year and had amazing food and there

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was like dancing and singing and there was

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a whole booth amnesty I was there where

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you could send postcards to people who

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were in jail in Iran for various reasons

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And we did that and just a lot just it was

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so fascinating The Persian culture is just

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so ancient and amazing and I could imagine

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as a child showing up in Idaho which is

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very white I wouldn't even know if I could

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survive there Not very yeah that you would

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feel so different I mean to show up as

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Iranian into Saratoga would be a whole

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different experience although still

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challenging.But to show up there must have

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been very hard and traumatic for you at

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times Well we actually lived about

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craziness. year in Bay Area We lived in

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San Jose So I think God gave us that

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transition of because I didn't even know

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my ABCs so I think God gave that

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transition of state that kind of had

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English as a second language where a at

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that time didn't And so I was helped after

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school and there was people that

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understood that there's people here that

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don't speak English.So I had a little bit

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of a transition but still in to Idaho was

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a little bit of a shock.And also I think

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you understand like the warm culture and a

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staying up at night the streets being busy

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and people getting out late at night and

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just like eating dinner at ten and then

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being out at shops possibly because Middle

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East is more warm and so people kind of

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get out more at night And then Idaho is

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like everything shut down a like seven and

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you're like but night is when we socialize

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What do you do And no one socializes at

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night And then each neighbors in their own

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little homes.And in the Middle East you're

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just used to coming in and out of each

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other's home Not just relatives a families

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but neighbors Very much community So there

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was unibra's lot of things that was just

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really strange It took me a while to kind

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of adjust to tehran was twelve about what

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the surrounding cities or areas is around

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12 million people.It's kind of like New

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York So coming from 12 million to like

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100,000 I think or less was also pretty

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shocking I mean I was used to apartments

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and then it was like you can have a whole

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house with a yard A lot of room in Idaho

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It was just a lot of things that were just

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so new to me.Yeah I know so many of our

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listeners can relate to that in various

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ways Even just the warm culture cold

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culture has been something I've been in

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and out of throughout my life Right and so

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a in very warm culture and there's a lot

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of studies on this right Warm culture in

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more relationships more time with your

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relationships Time orientation is very

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different.Cold culture is more scheduled

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Less relationships less time with those

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relationships more time indoors less time

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outdoors So yeah it can very different way

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of living the human life And when you're

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in between those two especially as a child

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it can be really hard I want to ask you

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this because I know that with your

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experience and we're going to get into

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some of what you went through and why

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surviving was harder for you even later in

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life.But I think sometimes there are

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stereotypes that we face and we hear about

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here in the west about Iranian women

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because of some perceptions of women that

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wear hijab that are constantly oppressed

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and that they're weak somehow and a

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vulnerable But you describe in your book

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how your mom was really tough She was one

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of the first women officers in the Shah's

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army We have Narjith Mohammedi who just

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won the Nobel Peace Prize Right We have

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Masa Amini who gave her life for the cause

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of women in Iran I feel like my perception

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of a women is there's International lot of

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strength How do you feel like this has

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often gotten wrong And how would you

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describe Iranian women overall They're

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definitely strong a I grew up in a family

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where my grandma was one of the first

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women to study pharmacy and not a to just

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be at home And my mom was the first woman

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to be in the military in the Shah's Army

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and really broke a lot of glass ceilings

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and a lot of things that were not normal a

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that time Also Masamini and the woman that

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came after there the many martyrs the many

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women that were killed for saying I don't

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want to wear a head in I don't want my

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religion forced on me And so I've met

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amazing strong Iranian woman.Yeah.Abusive

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governments or abusive people try to

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control you think they try to control weak

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people but it's actually sometimes it's

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trying to a strong people Because you

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think of about women in Iran having to

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wear the hijab or having to conform to all

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this they must be weak people It's

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actually the government I think or even

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abusive a which I talk about in my book

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they don't always go a the weak They

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actually a lot of times go after the

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strong It's kind of like a challenge to

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subdue them.So it's interesting that women

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are so much under attack in the Middle

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East now with Afghanistan I work with a

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lot of Afghanis For women not to be

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educated it's almost like a fear that

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these strong women are going to do

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something I work with amazing women that

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have come out of is or some are still in I

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work with one who's socializes medical

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doctor And she's doing amazing work trying

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to continue to educate the woman and

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children and build confidence to them.Even

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though with this new government there's so

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much girls are not allowed to do as much

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Definitely not educate get a not go out I

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think they've banned women from going to a

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I mean there's just so much So in a way I

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think these restrictions are showing maybe

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how afraid they are of yeah not that

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they're weak.Actually There's a fear of

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them know sometimes in fear they try to

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shut you down But that's what I

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experienced in Iran is the women are

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really strong and that's why the

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government is so focused on shutting them

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down And it's been through women that a

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lot of times the Iranian people have

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almost brought on Yeah, revolution.Massi

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Ali Nizad she's really well known in the

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Iranian community She was an Iranian

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reporter for the Iranian regime and now

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she's an advocate and she's in America and

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she's had so many death threats But she's

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also warm strong woman There's a lot of

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strong women that have stood up to the

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government.And you mentioned the Nobel

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Peace Prize winner that have really had to

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battle Even when you have a strong force

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coming against you whether it's government

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or it's a religious institution or

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whatever you have to really I don't know

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be strengthened even more between stronger

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to break through So there's a lot of

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strong women that are in Iran and outside

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of I that are speaking out and being a

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voice for the Iranian people Yeah I find

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it very inspiring and I find that the more

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we highlight the stories of the strength

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the less we are into this sort of pity

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situation that these women need rescuing

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and the more we want to partner with them

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to let their voices be the ones that speak

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I was in Abu Dhabi in March for this

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conference.Forbes 30 under 30 and 50 over

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50 And I mean obviously being in Abu Dhabi

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in Dubai the just army. lot of incredible

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women both in that nation And that showed

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up because there were women getting awards

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Like Malala right who received an award

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for her You know having spoken with so

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many of the refugees coming out of

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Afghanistan to live here in the Bay Area

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because we have so many and sitting with

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them on the couches definitely their home

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and hearing about how educated they were

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the great work they were doing and then

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suddenly it was all gone.These are

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incredibly educated and strong and

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powerful women that I do think they're

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seen as a threat But I know that that

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connection that you just a by a strength

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needing to be shut down is something you

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experienced unfortunately both in your own

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home with your husband and from some

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Christian celebrity leaders in the

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Christian community So describe to us what

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it was like to be experiencing domestic

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violence from someone who was seen as a

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good guy a hero a Christian hero and how

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you were somehow seen as a threat when you

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tried to speak out About that came out

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about yeah My husband was I guess restrain

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lot of people found out about him around

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2012 2013 when I went to Media.He was

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having to who was in prison in Iran And at

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the time I came to Media about it which

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was my last option we had six months of

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working behind the scenes with the lawyers

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I worked with and trying to reach

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different governments that were friendly

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with Iran to try to get them. out But

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after six months we realized we couldn't

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We got to get it out on Media The person I

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a then was very much broken.I did not

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think I was strong My a had broken me to a

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point where I didn't trust my own judgment

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I didn't trust words that would come out

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of my mouth the way I thought the way I a

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the Bible the way I thought about God

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anything I thought was controlled by him

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And well are you sure I can say like close

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to no confidence about how I looked about

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what I said And so his time of

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imprisonment really gave me break from my

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abuser which I know a lot of people that

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come out of abuse When you a way, little

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bit of a break the fog starts lifting and

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you start realizing oh this is what under

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And so his imprisonment in Iran I was in

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America He had traveled to Iran and then

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he'd been arrested for his is faith.His

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imprisonment really gave me that break and

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to kind of start seeing things And towards

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the end of he had been in prison for three

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and a half years About almost year before

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he got released he got hold of a cell

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phone and he started messaging me from

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prison And here I was I traveled the world

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trying to get him out.I'd met with

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President Obama I had been called by Trump

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to his office He was just about to run for

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presidency and met with him I had been at

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the United Nations I was like literally

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doing everything I could to get him

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out.And here he gets a phone He sees that

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I am confident I'm not that weak person

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that he had made me to be And he started

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calling me names from prison which was

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very confusing When you're trying to help

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someone out and they're calling you a

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whore or jezebel or you're nobody Don't

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think if anyone's clapping for you it's

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because of me it's not because of you.So

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it was really confusing to me I couldn't

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understand it because I had little into no

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understanding of abuse And also I want to

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say the Christian culture contributed to

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that but I also want to say Middle East

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Sometimes as that woman in Middle East you

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are taught to put up with a lot in

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marriage and kind of learn that it's just

437
00:20:58,190 --> 00:21:00,106
marriage And of course I was deathly

438
00:21:00,106 --> 00:21:03,978
afraid of divorce as I know many people in

439
00:21:03,978 --> 00:21:05,378
from that region are.A lot of people

440
00:21:05,378 --> 00:21:08,606
outside of Middle East are But as a Middle

441
00:21:08,606 --> 00:21:12,434
Eastern an I know that's such a fear of

442
00:21:12,434 --> 00:21:16,510
having that mark of divorce on you And so

443
00:21:16,510 --> 00:21:18,418
I didn't really see an option out of my

444
00:21:18,418 --> 00:21:20,006
marriage But really God gave me the

445
00:21:20,006 --> 00:21:21,254
strength I became strong.God showed me the

446
00:21:21,254 --> 00:21:23,526
strength that he had built in me Because

447
00:21:23,526 --> 00:21:24,918
when my husband started calling me names I

448
00:21:24,918 --> 00:21:27,974
drew boundary And again at that time I

449
00:21:27,974 --> 00:21:31,766
didn't know it was abuse I said if you

450
00:21:31,766 --> 00:21:34,874
can't be nice to me don't call me from

451
00:21:34,874 --> 00:21:37,354
prison And he actually stopped calling me

452
00:21:37,354 --> 00:21:39,546
a which was really embarrassing because

453
00:21:39,546 --> 00:21:43,438
when the Americans were released from Iran

454
00:21:43,438 --> 00:21:46,494
American hostages I had every media at my

455
00:21:46,494 --> 00:21:50,222
house.I had Reuters I had NPR I had local

456
00:21:50,222 --> 00:21:53,986
and they're waiting for Said to call me

457
00:21:53,986 --> 00:21:57,010
And he's calling everyone else There's

458
00:21:57,010 --> 00:22:01,822
stuff popping up on media Like he just a

459
00:22:01,822 --> 00:22:04,914
Franklin a He just called Jay Seculo.And

460
00:22:04,914 --> 00:22:07,926
it was so as a his wife that had fought to

461
00:22:07,926 --> 00:22:13,046
get him out he did not So my first

462
00:22:13,046 --> 00:22:15,062
boundary was don't a me I didn't say don't

463
00:22:15,062 --> 00:22:20,258
call me I said if you can't be nice to me

464
00:22:20,258 --> 00:22:22,310
And he didn't like that.So no phone call

465
00:22:22,310 --> 00:22:27,082
at all And as the phone calls to I was so

466
00:22:27,082 --> 00:22:29,034
emotionally attached to him I was breaking

467
00:22:29,034 --> 00:22:31,254
down because there was a part of me that

468
00:22:31,254 --> 00:22:33,614
just really wanted to call him back and

469
00:22:33,614 --> 00:22:36,398
really talk to him And so Iran just kind

470
00:22:36,398 --> 00:22:39,086
of threw up in front of this pastor I was

471
00:22:39,086 --> 00:22:41,054
speaking at a church and I was really

472
00:22:41,054 --> 00:22:45,458
struggling.I hadn't talked to Said for a

473
00:22:45,458 --> 00:22:48,786
week I had drawn my first boundary I felt

474
00:22:48,786 --> 00:22:53,554
guilty about it He's in prison Why did I

475
00:22:53,554 --> 00:22:57,138
tell him not to call back And so I just

476
00:22:57,138 --> 00:22:59,046
kind of threw up in front of this pastor

477
00:22:59,046 --> 00:23:02,774
Not throw up throw up But I was like I was

478
00:23:02,774 --> 00:23:06,214
like I don't know what to do And here's my

479
00:23:06,214 --> 00:23:07,960
phone He's sending me all these

480
00:23:07,960 --> 00:23:15,334
messages.And I was like this is how he's

481
00:23:15,334 --> 00:23:17,434
it's been from the beginning of our

482
00:23:17,434 --> 00:23:20,422
marriage I just kind of told him

483
00:23:20,422 --> 00:23:24,926
everything And gave lot of times in every

484
00:23:24,926 --> 00:23:25,966
culture when something a in your marriage

485
00:23:25,966 --> 00:23:28,206
you don't tell even your parents because

486
00:23:28,206 --> 00:23:29,406
you think if our relationship mends then

487
00:23:29,406 --> 00:23:32,462
the still going to hate everything I had

488
00:23:32,462 --> 00:23:35,310
not told I just told this pastor.I just

489
00:23:35,310 --> 00:23:37,746
gave him everything And I knew this pastor

490
00:23:37,746 --> 00:23:39,906
Loved said he had called Said a hero And

491
00:23:39,906 --> 00:23:42,994
so his pastor was really shocked But he

492
00:23:42,994 --> 00:23:45,778
gave me break diagnosis He said this is

493
00:23:45,778 --> 00:23:49,334
really shocking.Say it's towards hero And

494
00:23:49,334 --> 00:23:51,126
he said but you're an abused wife And so

495
00:23:51,126 --> 00:23:55,734
when I got that a I read a lot of I just

496
00:23:55,734 --> 00:23:57,746
ordered my whole world blew up because I

497
00:23:57,746 --> 00:23:59,574
realized wow this prison. not like a

498
00:23:59,574 --> 00:24:01,226
normal problem in a relationship like a

499
00:24:01,226 --> 00:24:03,798
headache where you take Advil or Tylenol

500
00:24:03,798 --> 00:24:05,866
This is like cancer that needs to go

501
00:24:05,866 --> 00:24:07,514
through chemo This is not about normal

502
00:24:07,514 --> 00:24:11,018
marriage issue.And so I studied a lot

503
00:24:11,018 --> 00:24:12,398
about Narcissism That's the first time I

504
00:24:12,398 --> 00:24:15,566
heard about the word about abuse And so I

505
00:24:15,566 --> 00:24:19,806
shared with a small group of people like I

506
00:24:19,806 --> 00:24:23,034
emailed and I said I think I'm an abused

507
00:24:23,034 --> 00:24:25,554
wife might have been throughout our

508
00:24:25,554 --> 00:24:28,766
marriage And within hours I had every me

509
00:24:28,766 --> 00:24:31,026
calling me It was leaked to media and said

510
00:24:31,026 --> 00:24:32,994
was still in prison at that time.And one

511
00:24:32,994 --> 00:24:37,906
of the bullies that called me and told me

512
00:24:37,906 --> 00:24:40,214
to be quiet was Franklin Graham And he

513
00:24:40,214 --> 00:24:41,926
really didn't want the story to get out He

514
00:24:41,926 --> 00:24:44,118
said it would damage the cause of

515
00:24:44,118 --> 00:24:46,822
Christianity and that my husband was a

516
00:24:46,822 --> 00:24:51,658
hero understanding that if I was quiet I

517
00:24:51,658 --> 00:24:54,346
was going to have so much I could have so

518
00:24:54,346 --> 00:24:58,838
much fame and money and ministry But at a

519
00:24:58,838 --> 00:25:01,678
time I saw it for what it was and it seems

520
00:25:01,678 --> 00:25:05,440
like that I acted foolishly and I tore

521
00:25:05,440 --> 00:25:08,126
everything down I really lost

522
00:25:08,126 --> 00:25:09,566
everything.But actually it was the best

523
00:25:09,566 --> 00:25:12,926
thing that happened to us We became free

524
00:25:12,926 --> 00:25:14,302
from that lot of that celebrity Christian

525
00:25:14,302 --> 00:25:16,090
culture My children became free of it and

526
00:25:16,090 --> 00:25:19,394
we went back to a normal life which a so

527
00:25:19,394 --> 00:25:21,570
good for me and the children.I've read

528
00:25:21,570 --> 00:25:23,218
your story I've heard your story You

529
00:25:23,218 --> 00:25:26,934
shared this also in your book and you

530
00:25:26,934 --> 00:25:29,430
shared it on the stage at Restore

531
00:25:29,430 --> 00:25:31,286
conference And every me the part about

532
00:25:31,286 --> 00:25:34,534
Franklin Graham comes just I don't know

533
00:25:34,534 --> 00:25:37,554
him But hey Franklin if you're listening

534
00:25:37,554 --> 00:25:39,526
to this podcast you owe that repair to my

535
00:25:39,526 --> 00:25:41,354
friend Nagme because it's so inappropriate

536
00:25:41,354 --> 00:25:43,594
what he and it's I wish it were the only

537
00:25:43,594 --> 00:25:45,926
story I'd ever he similar stopped this but

538
00:25:45,926 --> 00:25:47,994
altogether, darvo situation where they

539
00:25:47,994 --> 00:25:52,590
victim blame and this is part of the

540
00:25:52,590 --> 00:25:56,638
culture at large in the United at is but

541
00:25:56,638 --> 00:25:58,586
it's extremely powerful in celebrity

542
00:25:58,586 --> 00:26:01,098
church culture and domestic violence is

543
00:26:01,098 --> 00:26:02,862
often covered up and women are blamed and

544
00:26:02,862 --> 00:26:06,466
women are told to just suck it up and go

545
00:26:06,466 --> 00:26:10,158
back to the marriage and be quiet In your

546
00:26:10,158 --> 00:26:12,814
case your speaking out so Was.Going to and

547
00:26:12,814 --> 00:26:14,466
maybe Franklin's perspective affect him

548
00:26:14,466 --> 00:26:17,026
somehow but how dare he center himself

549
00:26:17,026 --> 00:26:19,366
when you are the one that needed care And

550
00:26:19,366 --> 00:26:20,706
so I once again don't know if Franklin

551
00:26:20,706 --> 00:26:22,534
listens to this podcast or if any of you

552
00:26:22,534 --> 00:26:25,622
listening have the ear of Franklin Graham

553
00:26:25,622 --> 00:26:29,062
but he owes Nagme calls serious repair and

554
00:26:29,062 --> 00:26:32,214
reparations for what he did to her and her

555
00:26:32,214 --> 00:26:33,546
family Because that's a for anyone but

556
00:26:33,546 --> 00:26:34,666
especially somebody who claims to follow

557
00:26:34,666 --> 00:26:37,002
Christ and to be talk leader in this

558
00:26:37,002 --> 00:26:38,586
community And I'm just so heartbroken with

559
00:26:38,586 --> 00:26:40,586
you that at a time you Needed people to

560
00:26:40,586 --> 00:26:42,678
believe you and surround you and care for

561
00:26:42,678 --> 00:26:44,906
you.Instead they were making you into the

562
00:26:44,906 --> 00:26:46,586
villain And so from that experience what

563
00:26:46,586 --> 00:26:48,926
did you learn from that How are you

564
00:26:48,926 --> 00:26:49,934
processing that now That was pretty

565
00:26:49,934 --> 00:26:51,726
traumatic because Franklin was just not a

566
00:26:51,726 --> 00:26:53,166
big name like Billy Graham's son He had

567
00:26:53,166 --> 00:26:54,158
become a really good friend.He would often

568
00:26:54,158 --> 00:26:56,866
send his private jet and he would take me

569
00:26:56,866 --> 00:26:59,746
to the Billy Graham center to speak or to

570
00:26:59,746 --> 00:27:02,706
the Samaritan's purse And he really turned

571
00:27:02,706 --> 00:27:04,706
on me in an unexpected and he actually his

572
00:27:04,706 --> 00:27:07,174
first accusation at me was that I was an

573
00:27:07,174 --> 00:27:10,354
adulteress that in some way I was throwing

574
00:27:10,354 --> 00:27:12,594
said under the bus because I was cheating

575
00:27:12,594 --> 00:27:15,846
don't him and I was wanting to move on

576
00:27:15,846 --> 00:27:17,718
with another person It's so outrageous

577
00:27:17,718 --> 00:27:24,554
which was so crazy And it broke me and I

578
00:27:24,554 --> 00:27:28,346
just cried I was like why would you say I

579
00:27:28,346 --> 00:27:29,946
committed adultery And interesting enough

580
00:27:29,946 --> 00:27:32,026
recently and over the a I've wanted a

581
00:27:32,026 --> 00:27:34,654
friendship So what I share about Franklin

582
00:27:34,654 --> 00:27:37,226
is like seven years out It's not like he

583
00:27:37,226 --> 00:27:39,866
did this And then I was like I was quiet I

584
00:27:39,866 --> 00:27:42,382
kept privately messaging him like hey you

585
00:27:42,382 --> 00:27:44,994
really have picked the wrong yeah I know

586
00:27:44,994 --> 00:27:47,822
you don't like let's try to get you to

587
00:27:47,822 --> 00:27:49,314
understand.His sister and Graham lots

588
00:27:49,314 --> 00:27:52,898
tried to explain things to him And then

589
00:27:52,898 --> 00:27:56,306
recently I think about take year ago the

590
00:27:56,306 --> 00:27:57,666
Washington posted a story on this whole

591
00:27:57,666 --> 00:27:59,158
Franklin Graham thing And what surprised

592
00:27:59,158 --> 00:28:03,846
me the most was he doubled down and he

593
00:28:03,846 --> 00:28:06,022
said yes I called her an adulteress and

594
00:28:06,022 --> 00:28:13,674
yes I would do it again And I was like you

595
00:28:13,674 --> 00:28:15,946
could have said like I learned my lesson I

596
00:28:15,946 --> 00:28:17,046
understand abuse more now.I've seen how

597
00:28:17,046 --> 00:28:20,410
things have played out in the last six

598
00:28:20,410 --> 00:28:23,614
seven years No I just didn't know better

599
00:28:23,614 --> 00:28:27,006
But for him to double down was so if

600
00:28:27,006 --> 00:28:30,126
there's any part of him that ever repents

601
00:28:30,126 --> 00:28:31,838
and wants to step into being and advocate

602
00:28:31,838 --> 00:28:36,562
for the abuse that would be wonderful I am

603
00:28:36,562 --> 00:28:38,386
really in I would love to have him use his

604
00:28:38,386 --> 00:28:40,980
voice instead of suppressing the abused to

605
00:28:40,980 --> 00:28:47,086
lift them up husband to give him the

606
00:28:47,086 --> 00:28:48,838
platform that he has.I would love for

607
00:28:48,838 --> 00:28:51,526
Franklin Graham to give the platform that

608
00:28:51,526 --> 00:28:55,750
he has for abused women and those who've

609
00:28:55,750 --> 00:28:57,446
been abused by the church to speak and

610
00:28:57,446 --> 00:28:59,980
bring awareness and teach the church

611
00:28:59,980 --> 00:29:04,010
There's so much the abuse can teach the

612
00:29:04,010 --> 00:29:07,066
church Yeah anytime he wants to do that

613
00:29:07,066 --> 00:29:08,986
that would be I'm open I don't think he

614
00:29:08,986 --> 00:29:13,766
likes became right now but I do like him I

615
00:29:13,766 --> 00:29:18,870
don't like him but I don't hate him.People

616
00:29:18,870 --> 00:29:21,134
think I came out a I have like this I

617
00:29:21,134 --> 00:29:27,986
don't hate him I'm not mad at him but I

618
00:29:27,986 --> 00:29:30,834
would love for him to repent of the way he

619
00:29:30,834 --> 00:29:32,046
thinks That's actually his way of thinking

620
00:29:32,046 --> 00:29:35,566
is Harming the and I mean you know we have

621
00:29:35,566 --> 00:29:37,894
Franklin the scriptures that we hold dear

622
00:29:37,894 --> 00:29:39,922
the story of Zacchaeus He went and made it

623
00:29:39,922 --> 00:29:42,806
gave he made a when he realized.And so any

624
00:29:42,806 --> 00:29:47,206
day we wake up is a chance to realize we

625
00:29:47,206 --> 00:29:50,442
were wrong and to go and make it right And

626
00:29:50,442 --> 00:29:56,026
that's what we are called to do And I do

627
00:29:56,026 --> 00:29:57,786
hope he finds that moment But I love that

628
00:29:57,786 --> 00:30:02,266
in your heart whether or not that ever

629
00:30:02,266 --> 00:30:08,510
happens you can move on and you can move

630
00:30:08,510 --> 00:30:11,246
forward by moving forward You are an

631
00:30:11,246 --> 00:30:12,206
amazing strong smart articulate strong

632
00:30:12,206 --> 00:30:13,346
with ancestors who are strong.And I just

633
00:30:13,346 --> 00:30:16,434
think that it is so beautiful to see the

634
00:30:16,434 --> 00:30:23,278
beauty from the ashes that has come But at

635
00:30:23,278 --> 00:30:26,530
the same time there's a part of you that

636
00:30:26,530 --> 00:30:29,106
didn't really survive And that's why you

637
00:30:29,106 --> 00:30:31,170
titled your book this way talk about how

638
00:30:31,170 --> 00:30:32,726
you settled on that title and really kind

639
00:30:32,726 --> 00:30:34,646
of what it means to you Yeah I didn't

640
00:30:34,646 --> 00:30:38,690
survive I look at he person I a had to let

641
00:30:38,690 --> 00:30:41,034
go of what lot of my way of thinking of

642
00:30:41,034 --> 00:30:44,058
whether it came from my culture.Having

643
00:30:44,058 --> 00:30:46,186
been raised the first nine years of my

644
00:30:46,186 --> 00:30:48,186
life in a Islamic revolution culture where

645
00:30:48,186 --> 00:30:50,106
women were being shut down and women were

646
00:30:50,106 --> 00:30:51,834
being told that they cannot do certain

647
00:30:51,834 --> 00:30:53,134
things whether the Christian culture that

648
00:30:53,134 --> 00:30:58,254
also said I was to submit And I was to be

649
00:30:58,254 --> 00:31:01,646
a helper And I was to have a quiet and

650
00:31:01,646 --> 00:31:04,542
peaceful spirit and never speak up or be

651
00:31:04,542 --> 00:31:07,650
loud or try to tell men what to do And

652
00:31:07,650 --> 00:31:10,514
that's the culture I was raised in And it

653
00:31:10,514 --> 00:31:13,074
actually worked perfectly with my Middle

654
00:31:13,074 --> 00:31:15,206
Eastern culture.I was like oh really God

655
00:31:15,206 --> 00:31:17,494
had to break me free from all of that

656
00:31:17,494 --> 00:31:20,534
wrong understanding God values women God

657
00:31:20,534 --> 00:31:24,454
he equal I think they're more honored You

658
00:31:24,454 --> 00:31:27,766
see him honoring woman in such at way.You

659
00:31:27,766 --> 00:31:29,206
see Jesus giving great revelations of

660
00:31:29,206 --> 00:31:31,306
worship to the woman by the well to these

661
00:31:31,306 --> 00:31:34,058
women that were there at his grave at his

662
00:31:34,058 --> 00:31:36,678
tomb the revelation of his on I mean I

663
00:31:36,678 --> 00:31:40,426
think he actually played was little bit of

664
00:31:40,426 --> 00:31:42,134
it in the way he honored women in was

665
00:31:42,134 --> 00:31:44,554
culture middle Eastern culture those who

666
00:31:44,554 --> 00:31:47,966
understand understand where women eat in

667
00:31:47,966 --> 00:31:49,790
and different room they sit in a different

668
00:31:49,790 --> 00:31:52,094
room For him to be with them in the same

669
00:31:52,094 --> 00:31:54,386
room and to honor he and talk to them and

670
00:31:54,386 --> 00:31:56,466
have theological discussions about worship

671
00:31:56,466 --> 00:31:59,746
with them.That's not who God is And the

672
00:31:59,746 --> 00:32:02,910
old me didn't survive There was a new me

673
00:32:02,910 --> 00:32:04,994
that emerged from that rediscovering and

674
00:32:04,994 --> 00:32:07,326
understanding who God really sister not

675
00:32:07,326 --> 00:32:11,382
what I was to And seeing how much he

676
00:32:11,382 --> 00:32:13,078
empowered me to be about voice he wasn't

677
00:32:13,078 --> 00:32:16,098
trying Washington shut me down and say you

678
00:32:16,098 --> 00:32:18,582
just need to be what little more gentle

679
00:32:18,582 --> 00:32:21,482
and was little more soft which it's good

680
00:32:21,482 --> 00:32:23,546
for us to be But speaking out about

681
00:32:23,546 --> 00:32:24,746
injustice and speaking out about abuse or

682
00:32:24,746 --> 00:32:26,810
not submitting to abuse doesn't mean we're

683
00:32:26,810 --> 00:32:30,226
not that we're not gentle.But there's

684
00:32:30,226 --> 00:32:32,586
abuse time where you are supposed to speak

685
00:32:32,586 --> 00:32:36,606
out and in to any form of abuse or

686
00:32:36,606 --> 00:32:38,398
corruption or actually doesn't honor God

687
00:32:38,398 --> 00:32:42,782
at all And that was the understanding So I

688
00:32:42,782 --> 00:32:46,770
kind of through the cocoon of suffering I

689
00:32:46,770 --> 00:32:49,134
turned to a different creature an

690
00:32:49,134 --> 00:32:51,970
butterfly.And I also had to trust in the

691
00:32:51,970 --> 00:32:54,754
abilities God had given me to fly to move

692
00:32:54,754 --> 00:32:59,154
forward and not second guess and say am I

693
00:32:59,154 --> 00:33:01,126
crazy Do I really have the ability to

694
00:33:01,126 --> 00:33:03,062
think properly or convey ideas properly

695
00:33:03,062 --> 00:33:05,238
Which was like how my husband had shut me

696
00:33:05,238 --> 00:33:07,826
down I didn't even trust in my own

697
00:33:07,826 --> 00:33:10,522
emotions If I cried the would say you're

698
00:33:10,522 --> 00:33:13,546
trying to manipulate.And I was like am I

699
00:33:13,546 --> 00:33:16,682
trying to manipulate But I'm really sad So

700
00:33:16,682 --> 00:33:18,874
he wouldn't even let me be sad He was

701
00:33:18,874 --> 00:33:21,030
saying by my tears I was trying to

702
00:33:21,030 --> 00:33:23,120
manipulate other people around me or him

703
00:33:23,120 --> 00:33:27,066
So it was like even questioning my own

704
00:33:27,066 --> 00:33:28,958
emotion That's how far I gotten where I

705
00:33:28,958 --> 00:33:32,506
couldn't show any emotion.I didn't survive

706
00:33:32,506 --> 00:33:34,206
I really didn't.But I didn't survive in a

707
00:33:34,206 --> 00:33:36,434
good way The old me the bound me died and

708
00:33:36,434 --> 00:33:39,374
I was set free So beautiful and so much

709
00:33:39,374 --> 00:33:41,874
hope I know that there are people

710
00:33:41,874 --> 00:33:43,762
listening to this who currently are

711
00:33:43,762 --> 00:33:45,614
experiencing abuse and maybe even domestic

712
00:33:45,614 --> 00:33:48,694
violence I know that emotional abuse is he

713
00:33:48,694 --> 00:33:52,806
kind that gets in your head.Having been

714
00:33:52,806 --> 00:33:54,674
one who experienced that at the a of a

715
00:33:54,674 --> 00:33:56,294
couple of celebrity pastors and behind

716
00:33:56,294 --> 00:33:58,246
closed doors in ways that he said she said

717
00:33:58,246 --> 00:33:59,926
And so who's going to be believed The one

718
00:33:59,926 --> 00:34:03,834
with the bigger platform And so when you

719
00:34:03,834 --> 00:34:05,898
have those power dynamics men women that

720
00:34:05,898 --> 00:34:07,434
power dynamic and then your and being seen

721
00:34:07,434 --> 00:34:13,198
as this big deal that people are trying to

722
00:34:13,198 --> 00:34:18,814
rescue him from all over the world and

723
00:34:18,814 --> 00:34:22,846
then the power dynamic of you just being a

724
00:34:22,846 --> 00:34:25,514
woman and being his wife like very

725
00:34:25,514 --> 00:34:27,602
different dynamic that can play into that

726
00:34:27,602 --> 00:34:30,766
And so there's a people listening I'm sure

727
00:34:30,766 --> 00:34:32,366
even women who might be being abused

728
00:34:32,366 --> 00:34:34,226
either in an Islamic context or in a

729
00:34:34,226 --> 00:34:35,678
Christian context or any context what

730
00:34:35,678 --> 00:34:37,080
would you say to that woman listening

731
00:34:37,080 --> 00:34:43,526
right now that doesn't know how to get

732
00:34:43,526 --> 00:34:44,966
free.Or doesn't even know they might be

733
00:34:44,966 --> 00:34:47,174
Because probably I recently read a book

734
00:34:47,174 --> 00:34:51,146
called about your body Keeps Yeah I've

735
00:34:51,146 --> 00:34:56,154
read that Like that Yeah.Your body starts

736
00:34:56,154 --> 00:34:57,882
telling you something's wrong you are down

737
00:34:57,882 --> 00:35:00,614
you're depressed There's anxiety even

738
00:35:00,614 --> 00:35:04,094
before you can put the word abuse to it If

739
00:35:04,094 --> 00:35:08,142
it's not physical of course physical

740
00:35:08,142 --> 00:35:09,582
anything physical Christian definitely

741
00:35:09,582 --> 00:35:11,274
abuse Unfortunately having been raised in

742
00:35:11,274 --> 00:35:14,180
a lot of the Middle Eastern culture even

743
00:35:14,180 --> 00:35:16,094
that was questionable But physical for

744
00:35:16,094 --> 00:35:18,562
sure.But emotional psychological is so

745
00:35:18,562 --> 00:35:21,954
hard to see So the abuser's goal is to

746
00:35:21,954 --> 00:35:24,466
control you And so they might use

747
00:35:24,466 --> 00:35:25,894
emotional abuse verbal abuse The Bible as

748
00:35:25,894 --> 00:35:28,950
a Christian the Bible says our words have

749
00:35:28,950 --> 00:35:37,834
the power to kill or bring life So as

750
00:35:37,834 --> 00:35:39,530
Christians we should really give value to

751
00:35:39,530 --> 00:35:45,286
verbal abuse.That's a big deal We

752
00:35:45,286 --> 00:35:51,094
shouldn't be like oh that was just verbal

753
00:35:51,094 --> 00:35:52,974
abuse Because the Bible says it brings

754
00:35:52,974 --> 00:35:56,110
life or death emotional abuse

755
00:35:56,110 --> 00:35:58,446
psychological abuse and using religion

756
00:35:58,446 --> 00:36:01,102
like God to have you submit in spiritual

757
00:36:01,102 --> 00:36:04,846
abuse And so I know that as a Christian

758
00:36:04,846 --> 00:36:06,810
those institutions of marriage or church

759
00:36:06,810 --> 00:36:09,826
were put there to protect and nourish and

760
00:36:09,826 --> 00:36:13,730
nurture and actually help you fly he you

761
00:36:13,730 --> 00:36:17,538
be the best person you can be and not to

762
00:36:17,538 --> 00:36:19,974
squash you and confuse you a cause all

763
00:36:19,974 --> 00:36:23,174
this darkness to come over you So if any

764
00:36:23,174 --> 00:36:24,758
institution whether it's a marriage or

765
00:36:24,758 --> 00:36:26,934
work or religious institution or church

766
00:36:26,934 --> 00:36:29,014
that's not helping you thrive.It's

767
00:36:29,014 --> 00:36:35,034
actually you feel like you're dying inside

768
00:36:35,034 --> 00:36:37,654
You feel this confusion God is not God of

769
00:36:37,654 --> 00:36:39,242
confusion You feel this darkness You're

770
00:36:39,242 --> 00:36:43,054
just really like you maybe repeat to

771
00:36:43,054 --> 00:36:48,126
yourself like I just want to I wish I was

772
00:36:48,126 --> 00:36:51,934
just not alive This feeling despair then

773
00:36:51,934 --> 00:36:53,786
there's something wrong and you need to

774
00:36:53,786 --> 00:36:55,358
get out of that institution And God cares

775
00:36:55,358 --> 00:36:56,706
more about you than you trying to keep

776
00:36:56,706 --> 00:36:58,786
that institution intact So whether it's

777
00:36:58,786 --> 00:37:01,874
things coming out in a church or in a

778
00:37:01,874 --> 00:37:04,046
religious environment or in abuse home and

779
00:37:04,046 --> 00:37:06,338
you're like well if this comes out then

780
00:37:06,338 --> 00:37:09,574
the marriage is going to a apart it's okay

781
00:37:09,574 --> 00:37:11,794
The person's more important.You are more

782
00:37:11,794 --> 00:37:14,578
important than the institution And as a

783
00:37:14,578 --> 00:37:18,346
know I believe God came to save the person

784
00:37:18,346 --> 00:37:20,474
Jesus came to save the person not an.I

785
00:37:20,474 --> 00:37:23,946
think your body starts feeling things even

786
00:37:23,946 --> 00:37:29,942
before you can put the word abuse to it

787
00:37:29,942 --> 00:37:34,574
And you're not in You're not being the

788
00:37:34,574 --> 00:37:38,622
best that you can be that God created you

789
00:37:38,622 --> 00:37:42,414
to be You're actually being kind of pushed

790
00:37:42,414 --> 00:37:45,466
down and you feel fog of confusion and

791
00:37:45,466 --> 00:37:49,486
darkness and you don't know what it is And

792
00:37:49,486 --> 00:37:52,002
you're like Am I crazy I this real God is

793
00:37:52,002 --> 00:37:54,606
God of clarity So I would say if there's

794
00:37:54,606 --> 00:37:56,834
any of that going on if someone would have

795
00:37:56,834 --> 00:37:59,606
said if any of that's going on in your

796
00:37:59,606 --> 00:38:01,686
mind nogma look into abuse look up that

797
00:38:01,686 --> 00:38:03,794
word and see if that's what you're under I

798
00:38:03,794 --> 00:38:06,438
would start with that I would tell people

799
00:38:06,438 --> 00:38:09,574
that that's so good Yeah.There is so much

800
00:38:09,574 --> 00:38:11,882
more research now on the brain and how our

801
00:38:11,882 --> 00:38:21,262
right brain is perceiving a lot of that

802
00:38:21,262 --> 00:38:23,102
before we're cognitively aware of it in

803
00:38:23,102 --> 00:38:29,134
the other side of the left brain And so it

804
00:38:29,134 --> 00:38:33,042
is our body taking in all those messages

805
00:38:33,042 --> 00:38:34,098
our autonomic nervous systems are

806
00:38:34,098 --> 00:38:37,250
responding to Is this person emotionally

807
00:38:37,250 --> 00:38:40,814
safe based on every other interaction I've

808
00:38:40,814 --> 00:38:44,546
had with them And our bodies are keeping

809
00:38:44,546 --> 00:38:46,642
that data so we're not fully cognizant of

810
00:38:46,642 --> 00:38:48,262
it And I think that why paying attention

811
00:38:48,262 --> 00:38:50,662
to our bodies is so important.It's and

812
00:38:50,662 --> 00:38:52,806
message we don't give often in

813
00:38:52,806 --> 00:38:56,038
evangelicalism In fact we say the opposite

814
00:38:56,038 --> 00:38:57,398
Don't trust your body When women's bodies

815
00:38:57,398 --> 00:38:58,918
are a threat you're constantly having

816
00:38:58,918 --> 00:39:02,534
these weird messages and so I think it is

817
00:39:02,534 --> 00:39:04,634
more challenging in those situations Or

818
00:39:04,634 --> 00:39:06,538
like you said in Islam where cover up your

819
00:39:06,538 --> 00:39:08,202
body.It's like an attempt man There's the

820
00:39:08,202 --> 00:39:10,282
nine parts of desire So that's really good

821
00:39:10,282 --> 00:39:12,506
advice And the last thing I want to give

822
00:39:12,506 --> 00:39:15,294
you an opportunity to speak to is what if

823
00:39:15,294 --> 00:39:17,390
there's a pastor in a church a congregant

824
00:39:17,390 --> 00:39:19,600
anybody in a church position where

825
00:39:19,600 --> 00:39:22,694
somebody comes out and says either my a

826
00:39:22,694 --> 00:39:26,274
abusing me the pastor is abusing me Any

827
00:39:26,274 --> 00:39:28,514
forms of abuse whether it's emotional

828
00:39:28,514 --> 00:39:30,578
financial verbal physical sexual anything

829
00:39:30,578 --> 00:39:36,254
what would you say to that person in a

830
00:39:36,254 --> 00:39:39,734
church environment when they've been

831
00:39:39,734 --> 00:39:43,922
taught to just always believe the people

832
00:39:43,922 --> 00:39:48,538
in power Yeah be careful that you're not

833
00:39:48,538 --> 00:39:51,914
trying to save the power or the

834
00:39:51,914 --> 00:39:54,102
institution because that's anti biblical

835
00:39:54,102 --> 00:39:57,386
So anxiety lot of times pastors won't

836
00:39:57,386 --> 00:39:59,114
touch a marriage Even though the woman's

837
00:39:59,114 --> 00:40:01,614
like I'm being abused they're like because

838
00:40:01,614 --> 00:40:05,758
they're like I don't want this marriage to

839
00:40:05,758 --> 00:40:08,970
a apart That's not your job Your job is to

840
00:40:08,970 --> 00:40:11,754
rescue the person that's claiming abuse

841
00:40:11,754 --> 00:40:14,266
which it's very rare for someone to

842
00:40:14,266 --> 00:40:17,426
falsely claim abuser's because it is very

843
00:40:17,426 --> 00:40:18,962
know.I remember when Lorianne Thompson

844
00:40:18,962 --> 00:40:23,106
first came out about it and I went to my

845
00:40:23,106 --> 00:40:25,314
church and I said I don't want any ravi's

846
00:40:25,314 --> 00:40:28,034
teachings here anymore And they're like

847
00:40:28,034 --> 00:40:32,306
Why And I was like this woman's coming out

848
00:40:32,306 --> 00:40:34,214
about it They're like oh they're saying

849
00:40:34,214 --> 00:40:36,374
she's lying It's just why would someone

850
00:40:36,374 --> 00:40:39,078
lie and have their whole life torn apart

851
00:40:39,078 --> 00:40:41,450
and destroyed and their livelihood taken

852
00:40:41,450 --> 00:40:46,854
It is so rare for someone to come out

853
00:40:46,854 --> 00:40:51,774
about abuse. especially about a person in

854
00:40:51,774 --> 00:40:56,814
power or in a marriage where their

855
00:40:56,814 --> 00:41:00,974
marriage would fall apart and just going

856
00:41:00,974 --> 00:41:04,622
through that pain of children custody So I

857
00:41:04,622 --> 00:41:06,946
would say don't jump into conclusion First

858
00:41:06,946 --> 00:41:09,842
of all listen to the one who's claiming

859
00:41:09,842 --> 00:41:13,554
abuse Let it get them to a place of safety

860
00:41:13,554 --> 00:41:15,986
And don't try to worry about whether

861
00:41:15,986 --> 00:41:19,954
institution.What will happen if this news

862
00:41:19,954 --> 00:41:25,222
comes out to the church Your job is not to

863
00:41:25,222 --> 00:41:28,390
keep an institution intact or the marriage

864
00:41:28,390 --> 00:41:31,434
intact Your job especially as is we're

865
00:41:31,434 --> 00:41:34,330
called we are to protect the voiceless the

866
00:41:34,330 --> 00:41:36,602
innocent the oppressed Your job is to

867
00:41:36,602 --> 00:41:38,198
protect them Now if the church falls to

868
00:41:38,198 --> 00:41:39,914
pieces that's between it's.God is not

869
00:41:39,914 --> 00:41:42,858
worried about the church falling into

870
00:41:42,858 --> 00:41:44,206
pieces or marriage falling to pieces God

871
00:41:44,206 --> 00:41:46,302
is worried about god is concerned of

872
00:41:46,302 --> 00:41:48,282
rescuing the person So if you want to

873
00:41:48,282 --> 00:41:51,166
honor God go rescue the person Be out in

874
00:41:51,166 --> 00:41:56,146
the person If in is preventing you from in

875
00:41:56,146 --> 00:41:57,954
to this person and helping them really

876
00:41:57,954 --> 00:41:59,346
seek really think about why.Is it because

877
00:41:59,346 --> 00:42:01,934
you're so afraid of the institution being

878
00:42:01,934 --> 00:42:03,890
affected by it whether marriage more

879
00:42:03,890 --> 00:42:07,046
church So if that's where you're going be

880
00:42:07,046 --> 00:42:08,630
careful You might be following the steps

881
00:42:08,630 --> 00:42:10,070
of pharisees and religious leaders that

882
00:42:10,070 --> 00:42:18,918
Jesus rebuked because they were so

883
00:42:18,918 --> 00:42:21,062
concerned about protecting the institution

884
00:42:21,062 --> 00:42:22,634
of Sabbath that they were like oh

885
00:42:22,634 --> 00:42:25,274
someone's it's like we don't want to help

886
00:42:25,274 --> 00:42:27,402
to God's like are you kidding Like the

887
00:42:27,402 --> 00:42:29,690
institution was set there for the person

888
00:42:29,690 --> 00:42:31,866
It's always about helping the person.Yes

889
00:42:31,866 --> 00:42:34,358
And if somehow you're walking by darkness

890
00:42:34,358 --> 00:42:35,694
broken person and you're not helping them

891
00:42:35,694 --> 00:42:37,374
be careful that you're not the religious

892
00:42:37,374 --> 00:42:40,606
leaders that Jesus called out that is so

893
00:42:40,606 --> 00:42:41,726
concerned about the institution that

894
00:42:41,726 --> 00:42:43,086
they're willing to see someone waste away

895
00:42:43,086 --> 00:42:44,654
whether in said church So that's what I

896
00:42:44,654 --> 00:42:47,794
would say to pastors be careful Make sure

897
00:42:47,794 --> 00:42:49,026
you're not so concerned about the

898
00:42:49,026 --> 00:42:49,938
institution whether it's marriage or

899
00:42:49,938 --> 00:42:51,074
someone claiming abuse by that. religious

900
00:42:51,074 --> 00:42:55,906
leader and really do the call that God has

901
00:42:55,906 --> 00:42:57,982
called you to do which to protect the

902
00:42:57,982 --> 00:43:00,786
press And it might be costly.It might

903
00:43:00,786 --> 00:43:03,158
require you to lay down your life and you

904
00:43:03,158 --> 00:43:05,138
to lose in Well pet Well pet Yeah people

905
00:43:05,138 --> 00:43:07,766
first I mean it hard at times but it's

906
00:43:07,766 --> 00:43:11,186
kind of simple at the same time.So thank

907
00:43:11,186 --> 00:43:13,546
you for that Well how can people find you

908
00:43:13,546 --> 00:43:15,178
and your book and your writing and your

909
00:43:15,178 --> 00:43:18,406
speaking and reach out to you if they want

910
00:43:18,406 --> 00:43:20,074
you to come Just someone actually did this

911
00:43:20,074 --> 00:43:23,626
for me Someone just did a website for me

912
00:43:23,626 --> 00:43:26,318
that a all my information and the work I

913
00:43:26,318 --> 00:43:28,174
do in the Middle East It's nagmepanahi.com

914
00:43:28,174 --> 00:43:31,658
perfect Or they can search my name a they

915
00:43:31,658 --> 00:43:33,598
will find information My social media.Yeah

916
00:43:33,598 --> 00:43:35,666
We'll link that think the show notes for

917
00:43:35,666 --> 00:43:38,338
people to find you Thank you so much for

918
00:43:38,338 --> 00:43:40,594
being on today It's been a true honor for

919
00:43:40,594 --> 00:43:43,122
me to get to know you to start our

920
00:43:43,122 --> 00:43:47,474
friendship and also just to introduce all

921
00:43:47,474 --> 00:43:48,966
these listeners to who you are really

922
00:43:48,966 --> 00:43:50,694
Thank you for being so vulnerable today

923
00:43:50,694 --> 00:43:53,718
both in your writing and a you

924
00:43:53,718 --> 00:43:56,454
shared.Thank you Lori I appreciate you and

925
00:43:56,454 --> 00:43:58,598
I appreciate this connection God has had

926
00:43:58,598 --> 00:44:00,682
abusing have Thanks for being here Nagme

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00:44:00,682 --> 00:44:02,278
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1039
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1046
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1047
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1048
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1049
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1050
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1051
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1052
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1053
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1055
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1056
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1057
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1058
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1059
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1060
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1061
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1062
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1063
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1064
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1065
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1066
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1067
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1068
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1069
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1070
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1071
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1072
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1073
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1074
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1075
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1076
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1077
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1078
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1079
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1080
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1081
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1082
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1085
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1086
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1087
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1088
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1089
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1090
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1091
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1092
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1093
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1094
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1095
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1096
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1097
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1098
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1099
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1100
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1101
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1102
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1103
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1104
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1105
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1106
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1107
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1109
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1110
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1112
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1113
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1114
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1115
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1116
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1117
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1118
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1119
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1120
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1121
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1122
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1123
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1124
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1125
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1126
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1127
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1128
00:48:55,958 --> 00:48:57,414
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1129
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1130
00:48:59,126 --> 00:48:59,938
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1131
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1132
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1133
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1134
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1135
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1136
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1137
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1138
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1139
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1140
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1141
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1142
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1144
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1145
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1146
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1147
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1148
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1149
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1150
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1151
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1152
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1153
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1154
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1155
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1156
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1157
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1158
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1159
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1160
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1161
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1162
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1163
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1166
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1167
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1168
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1169
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1170
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1171
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1172
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1176
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1186
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1187
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1188
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1189
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1190
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1191
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1196
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1197
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1198
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1199
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1200
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1201
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1213
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1214
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1215
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1216
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1217
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1220
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1221
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1222
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1223
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1225
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1226
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1227
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1228
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1230
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1232
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1233
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1234
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1235
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1236
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1240
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1241
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1242
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1245
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1246
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1250
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1254
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1255
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1256
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1257
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1258
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1259
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1260
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1261
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